I actually wanted to tell this to everyone who’s in pain because someone so special to him or her suddenly left. Never stop! Never stop being the same. Care for her just the same, love her just the same, and think of her just the same. Everything must stay the same, even if she’s left you, even if she ignores you. Never stop showing that she’s important. Never stop showing her the way you are. That even if she’s done something wrong you’re still at the same pedestal from where you were with arms wide open waiting for her, that you forgive her because you love her, and that she means everything to you. Cause this is what she is to you, before she left, and since you all said it when she hasn’t left yet and you meant forever, before she left. Never stop showing that you love her if you really love her. No matter what it takes. Let go of pride… shame on her. Just never stop! And this is what I wanted to tell you, cause I know you love her. Never stop.
But what if it works out on the two of you… unlike on him and me. It did not work how I never stopped showing him the same me, like when were still okay together. I thought that my unconditional love would melt his heart and bring him back to me. It didn’t. Cause in his case, he no longer had the guts to show up. Something’s holding him back, pulling him into the deepest roots of hell. And he’ll never stop, running away from this unconditional love I’m giving to him. And I’ll never stop this unconditional love which is also unrequited.
But what if it works out on the two of you…will I be sorry for imparting this technique to the two of you, in case it could bring you back together? Will I be left behind? Will I still be eyeing you by that time? Will I still be caring for you like how I wanted to take your pain away today? Or even if it doesn’t work, but you never stop this feeling, I realized that I’d no longer have the chance on you…. And maybe in time, I also am not yet stopping on him. Let’s put it this way.
But what if we start something else while we were both in the middle of not stopping on him and on her? Will it take us anywhere? I dunno.. Maybe… This is crazy. >_<